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anythingbutgrey) wrote2010-07-10 03:31 pm
anythingbutgrey) wrote2010-07-10 03:31 pm
Five things meme
responses to the five things in my otp personal canon from yesterday. i'm also going to post my responses to ladyfest later. sup. also, re-watching angel s1? much more painful when you ship angel/cordelia. my heart hurts all the time.
also yes i recognize that jack/kate and angel/cordelia end with the same line. DON'T CARE, OTP, SHAKING AND CRYING. and the a/c one is kind of a mess because this ship makes me a mess and I'm trying to do way too much here, but here it is.
Five Things You Don't Know About Kara/Lee for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
hyacinthian. Full series spoilers.
1. The first night they met, with the ambrosia and the table and what could have happened, it's not the last time. It happens again two months later, and then five weeks after that. He will blame it on ambrosia, or her, or him, but never on them, and what that means.
2. After Zac's funeral, he doesn't even look at her for a year. When he passes her in the halls of the academy, he stares at the ground. Kara looks straight at him, waiting, watching, about to lash out. The truth is, she hates him for a long time. Not as much as she hates herself, never, but there's a part of her that has to blame him for making her doubt what she had with Zac, because she shouldn't have doubted anything. And then he died, and it seems like a punishment as well as her fault, the gods lashing out at her for her transgressions.
3. After she dies - the first time, exploding into a sea of ash - Lee does not speak for two days. He just sits in his room, breaks mirrors, sits as still and solemn as the priests who meditated to connect with the gods. If Lee could communicate with a higher power, he doesn't know what he would say, but he knows, if he could, he'd burn Olympus to the ground.
3a. He has always loved her. Don't let him tell you otherwise. This has always been true.
4. He doesn't know why he ever leaves her side after she comes back from the dead, he doesn't know why he gets on that raptor, he doesn't know why he doesn't sit next to her in that jail cell and proclaim any fate handed to her can be given to him too. It has always seem to be that way, after all.
5. Sometimes the gods give back what they take, and one day he is on the rocky beaches of what in several thousand years will become Scotland and she just sits next to him, smiles, says, "They sent me back."
Five Things You Don't Know About Jack/Kate forcolourmayfade. Full series spoilers.
1. BeforeMonica Kate left Kevin, when she took that pregnancy test, she was making sure she wouldn't have to stay. Kate was born to run, this is something everyone seems to find out at some point or another, but with Jack, it seems like from the beginning she was always headed straight toward stationary. Maybe he knew from the start, the way he looked at her in the jungle and said, "You're not running now." Or maybe she was the one who knew from the start, and he was just observant.
2. Jack never quite gets over Sarah - it's not her, it's them, it's the way his house still smells of her for months after she's gone, the way he keeps finding her things under the bed or behind the couch. Jack's problem is that he has always loved something more than the women he meant to love. He doesn't want to. He just doesn't seem to have much of a choice.
3. Do not misunderstand - Kate is quite easily the most important person in his life. He loves her in ways he cannot even say out loud. He doesn't have the words for it. Jack has never been particularly good with words - Live together, die alone was his only mantra and, until the moment he dies, he is surprised it stuck. The only problem with him and Kate was that he had a destiny even love couldn't match, and the day he figures that out is the day their lives go to hell.
4. After he's dead, after she stops running to the door at every knock, every phantom sound, Kate just seems to - stop. Just for a few days, the stillest days of her life, sitting on her bed and dreaming of love songs. She's still with it enough to not leave the state, but she does drive up and down the California coast for a week, staring at the ocean, wondering what it would be like to jump in. Kate's afraid of the ocean now. Claire has to take Aaron to the beach, because when Kate goes to the sea she looks out and only sees Jack, death, cyan waves stained red with blood.
5. When they meet in the afterlife, when he's awake and dead and alive and with her and finally, he holds onto her hands and his entire body feels like it's humming, like he is far more alive in death than he could have been in life. Heaven is a complicated place with many rooms, and he can't quite describe it because that's not fair, but there is him, and there is Kate, and there is sun and the sky and there's home.
"I love you," he says, in their tiny little space, wrapped up together, just breathing.
She smiles against his lips. "I know. I've always known."
Five Things You Don't Know About Angel/Cordelia forviennawaits. Full series spoilers.
1. Some days, Angel will ask her to move into the hotel. She's always there anyway, it just makes more sense, and it would be free. But she can't, and he knows she can't. She needs her tiny break, she needs her brief way out. She'll never admit it, but there are days - many, many, many days - when all she wants to do is curl up in bed and give the visions back. These bad days are not everyday occurrences - they happen once every six months, perhaps - but they are days where she is so exhausted that all she can do is pray Angel won't call, that the Powers won't come knocking. But Angel will inevitably call on those days, not because there's anything wrong, necessarily, but because, he will say, "Something is up with you. It's too quiet around here. Come over." And she will pull her hair into a ponytail, truck into work, and, actually, she does feel completely better once she sees him.
1a. The point is, she should have known she loved him far earlier. He should have known it too.
2. When he was at the bottom of the ocean, Cordelia stayed trapped and screaming in that other dimension, begging the Powers to get him out, to send her back to save him. The Powers just said she had saved him enough times for this life, and it was someone else's turn now. She never hated them more than she did in that moment, but those visions he had of happiness while sinking and screaming in the sea? That was her. She couldn't hold them for long, he would always snap out of it crying her name, but for a moment, for a second, they could both breathe a little easier.
3. Later, he will not be able to pinpoint when he fell in love with Cordelia. There wasn't even any particular day, it was just - one day this crazed, ridiculous, impossible woman became the most important person in his life. It was so quiet, so different than what he had with Buffy, which was loud and supernaturally determined, that he's not surprised he didn't see it until it was too late.
He will dream every day of ways he could have saved her. Every single day. Long after everyone else is dead, when their ghosts still burn inside and claw at him, the loss of her always scalds the most. Eventually, he thinks she comes to brand herself on the dead, dried up muscle of his heart.
4. When Jasmine is running her body, a part of Cordelia hates Angel so much for not seeing it wasn't her earlier. Luckily for them both, she has always loved Angel far more than he has frustrated her. This has saved both of their lives too many times, but in the end it doesn't seem to matter much.
5. The truth of it is, she's not dead. She's just waiting. He had to think she was dead to finish out his mission, but the Powers have always promised him redemption, and for all of their horror, they do keep their promises. You can't sign away a destiny, and there is a day - December, 2012, Southern California, where the world does not end, and Angel steps into the sunlight with a beating heart and she is there wearing a blue knit sweater, jeans, sandals, standing on the brightest spot on the pier. The very same pier, in fact, where thirteen long, unlucky years ago, he was human for a day, a day that he thought would be the most haunting day of his life until he met the days he had to live without Cordelia.
They just stare at each other for a few minutes. Too many minutes, impossible minutes - he doesn't think time even exists anymore because her presence must mean absolute impossibility, the fragmentation of an old world to build up a new one, but then she takes a step, then another, and then he is walking toward her with a body that does not feel like his and they stop in the middle of the pier and his body is burning not from the sun. She says, "I've missed you," and her voice cracks like he feels his body cracking under this newly impossible weight.
"Cordelia," he whispers and it's halfway to a question mark. Tears are falling down her cheeks and ricocheting off his hands, and the warmth on his skin makes him start crying too, and he doesn't even care, because this is what it means to be human, and being with Cordelia has always made him feel more alive than he had ever been since his heart stopped beating.
"I love you," he says, immediately, because - "I should have said it earlier, before, when I could. I love, I love, I -"
"I know," she says, her hand resting on his cheek, moving closer. "I've always known."
also yes i recognize that jack/kate and angel/cordelia end with the same line. DON'T CARE, OTP, SHAKING AND CRYING. and the a/c one is kind of a mess because this ship makes me a mess and I'm trying to do way too much here, but here it is.
Five Things You Don't Know About Kara/Lee for
hyacinthian. Full series spoilers.1. The first night they met, with the ambrosia and the table and what could have happened, it's not the last time. It happens again two months later, and then five weeks after that. He will blame it on ambrosia, or her, or him, but never on them, and what that means.
2. After Zac's funeral, he doesn't even look at her for a year. When he passes her in the halls of the academy, he stares at the ground. Kara looks straight at him, waiting, watching, about to lash out. The truth is, she hates him for a long time. Not as much as she hates herself, never, but there's a part of her that has to blame him for making her doubt what she had with Zac, because she shouldn't have doubted anything. And then he died, and it seems like a punishment as well as her fault, the gods lashing out at her for her transgressions.
3. After she dies - the first time, exploding into a sea of ash - Lee does not speak for two days. He just sits in his room, breaks mirrors, sits as still and solemn as the priests who meditated to connect with the gods. If Lee could communicate with a higher power, he doesn't know what he would say, but he knows, if he could, he'd burn Olympus to the ground.
3a. He has always loved her. Don't let him tell you otherwise. This has always been true.
4. He doesn't know why he ever leaves her side after she comes back from the dead, he doesn't know why he gets on that raptor, he doesn't know why he doesn't sit next to her in that jail cell and proclaim any fate handed to her can be given to him too. It has always seem to be that way, after all.
5. Sometimes the gods give back what they take, and one day he is on the rocky beaches of what in several thousand years will become Scotland and she just sits next to him, smiles, says, "They sent me back."
Five Things You Don't Know About Jack/Kate for
colourmayfade. Full series spoilers.1. Before
2. Jack never quite gets over Sarah - it's not her, it's them, it's the way his house still smells of her for months after she's gone, the way he keeps finding her things under the bed or behind the couch. Jack's problem is that he has always loved something more than the women he meant to love. He doesn't want to. He just doesn't seem to have much of a choice.
3. Do not misunderstand - Kate is quite easily the most important person in his life. He loves her in ways he cannot even say out loud. He doesn't have the words for it. Jack has never been particularly good with words - Live together, die alone was his only mantra and, until the moment he dies, he is surprised it stuck. The only problem with him and Kate was that he had a destiny even love couldn't match, and the day he figures that out is the day their lives go to hell.
4. After he's dead, after she stops running to the door at every knock, every phantom sound, Kate just seems to - stop. Just for a few days, the stillest days of her life, sitting on her bed and dreaming of love songs. She's still with it enough to not leave the state, but she does drive up and down the California coast for a week, staring at the ocean, wondering what it would be like to jump in. Kate's afraid of the ocean now. Claire has to take Aaron to the beach, because when Kate goes to the sea she looks out and only sees Jack, death, cyan waves stained red with blood.
5. When they meet in the afterlife, when he's awake and dead and alive and with her and finally, he holds onto her hands and his entire body feels like it's humming, like he is far more alive in death than he could have been in life. Heaven is a complicated place with many rooms, and he can't quite describe it because that's not fair, but there is him, and there is Kate, and there is sun and the sky and there's home.
"I love you," he says, in their tiny little space, wrapped up together, just breathing.
She smiles against his lips. "I know. I've always known."
Five Things You Don't Know About Angel/Cordelia for
viennawaits. Full series spoilers.1. Some days, Angel will ask her to move into the hotel. She's always there anyway, it just makes more sense, and it would be free. But she can't, and he knows she can't. She needs her tiny break, she needs her brief way out. She'll never admit it, but there are days - many, many, many days - when all she wants to do is curl up in bed and give the visions back. These bad days are not everyday occurrences - they happen once every six months, perhaps - but they are days where she is so exhausted that all she can do is pray Angel won't call, that the Powers won't come knocking. But Angel will inevitably call on those days, not because there's anything wrong, necessarily, but because, he will say, "Something is up with you. It's too quiet around here. Come over." And she will pull her hair into a ponytail, truck into work, and, actually, she does feel completely better once she sees him.
1a. The point is, she should have known she loved him far earlier. He should have known it too.
2. When he was at the bottom of the ocean, Cordelia stayed trapped and screaming in that other dimension, begging the Powers to get him out, to send her back to save him. The Powers just said she had saved him enough times for this life, and it was someone else's turn now. She never hated them more than she did in that moment, but those visions he had of happiness while sinking and screaming in the sea? That was her. She couldn't hold them for long, he would always snap out of it crying her name, but for a moment, for a second, they could both breathe a little easier.
3. Later, he will not be able to pinpoint when he fell in love with Cordelia. There wasn't even any particular day, it was just - one day this crazed, ridiculous, impossible woman became the most important person in his life. It was so quiet, so different than what he had with Buffy, which was loud and supernaturally determined, that he's not surprised he didn't see it until it was too late.
He will dream every day of ways he could have saved her. Every single day. Long after everyone else is dead, when their ghosts still burn inside and claw at him, the loss of her always scalds the most. Eventually, he thinks she comes to brand herself on the dead, dried up muscle of his heart.
4. When Jasmine is running her body, a part of Cordelia hates Angel so much for not seeing it wasn't her earlier. Luckily for them both, she has always loved Angel far more than he has frustrated her. This has saved both of their lives too many times, but in the end it doesn't seem to matter much.
5. The truth of it is, she's not dead. She's just waiting. He had to think she was dead to finish out his mission, but the Powers have always promised him redemption, and for all of their horror, they do keep their promises. You can't sign away a destiny, and there is a day - December, 2012, Southern California, where the world does not end, and Angel steps into the sunlight with a beating heart and she is there wearing a blue knit sweater, jeans, sandals, standing on the brightest spot on the pier. The very same pier, in fact, where thirteen long, unlucky years ago, he was human for a day, a day that he thought would be the most haunting day of his life until he met the days he had to live without Cordelia.
They just stare at each other for a few minutes. Too many minutes, impossible minutes - he doesn't think time even exists anymore because her presence must mean absolute impossibility, the fragmentation of an old world to build up a new one, but then she takes a step, then another, and then he is walking toward her with a body that does not feel like his and they stop in the middle of the pier and his body is burning not from the sun. She says, "I've missed you," and her voice cracks like he feels his body cracking under this newly impossible weight.
"Cordelia," he whispers and it's halfway to a question mark. Tears are falling down her cheeks and ricocheting off his hands, and the warmth on his skin makes him start crying too, and he doesn't even care, because this is what it means to be human, and being with Cordelia has always made him feel more alive than he had ever been since his heart stopped beating.
"I love you," he says, immediately, because - "I should have said it earlier, before, when I could. I love, I love, I -"
"I know," she says, her hand resting on his cheek, moving closer. "I've always known."