suitcaseofmemories ([identity profile] scatteredintime.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] anythingbutgrey 2010-11-29 01:13 am (UTC)

Harry/Ron/Hermione -- Gravity

It's after the war.

When people ask him, he tells them he’s fine. Isn’t that what you were supposed to say? Nobody wants to hear tirades of depression.

He’s not depressed. They’ve just won a war and changed the world and made a difference.

He’s just lost.

-

Hermione is the first one to realise what he really means when he says it.

“I’m fine. I just didn’t expect to be here tonight.”

She takes a moment to figure it out. Ron replies with a dazed “Huh?” and then goes back to discussing the Chudley Cannons with his alter ego.

When she finally has it figured out, she throws herself into Harry’s arms, whispers a devastated “Oh Harry” and presses her body against him with all her might. She’s not going to let go of him for a while.

-

Ron doesn’t take the news of Harry’s break-up with Ginny well. He’s hell-bent on avenging his sister, even if she was the one to break up with Harry.

It’s no one’s fault but the war’s.

Ginny understands, says that this isn’t meant to be, agrees that they’re still friends, beams when Harry agrees. They’re both children of a fucked up generation and Harry was too much in love with the idea of having a family of his own and Ginny was too much in love with the Boy Who Lived, but not with Harry.

They were teenagers when they had built up this fantasy and now they’re not. They agree that they’re both mature enough to make this decision.

They still love each other. Just not like that.

-

Harry leaves when Ron doesn’t look like he’ll come around anytime soon. He tells Ginny where he’s going – away, away from here, away from the memories, away from the war, because it’s still waging in his mind, it’ll never stop, he’ll never get rid of the war inside his bones – and that’s that.

She promises not to tell anyone if he keeps in contact with her. He promises not to do anything stupid.

-

Ron does eventually come around. Hermione has to spell it out for him, once he’s speaking to her again and not putting on his child face and sticking his fingers into his eyes and singing “I can’t hear you” every time she mentions Harry’s name.

She doesn’t rebuke him for it when he does that. They’ve all grown up too quickly and maybe it’s what Ron needs. They all have their baggage to carry and it could be worse. Craving a piece of the innocence you lost a bit too early is perhaps the best thing that could happen.

Hermione herself isn’t quite right in the head, as they might say. She cannot help it, ever since Malfoy Manor she’s jumpy and it hasn’t been nearly long enough to forget. In her bones she can still feel the things that Bellatrix did to her. She doubts it’ll ever go away. Her parents are back to normal, they’re setting up a new dentistry and she hides from them because they’ll notice that she’s grown paranoid and she doesn’t want to explain more than she already had.


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